I know I’ve talked about this before, but yesterday’s post sparked a discussion on the topic, so I thought I’d put in my two cents.
I write for a lot of reasons; because I have a great story idea and I have to get it down, because every time I read an incredible book I get the urge to write, because I want to move my readers, because I want to share my stories, because I want to be published, because I want to contribute to the world, because I want to have a career but still be a stay at home mom, because I want to help contribute to our family’s financial situation. These are the biggest reasons I write. Did you notice something? I bet you did. I bet you noticed that I didn’t say I love to write. That’s because I can’t honestly say I love it every single day.
That’s right. I love writing some days. Some days, I HATE it. Some days I’m in the zone and don’t even remember putting the words on the page, and when I’m done for the day, I feel euphoric. Some days, each word is like a tiny nugget of gold, mined out of my brain with explosions and a painfully sharp backhoe. Let’s face it, if I wanted an enjoyable hobby I’d knit, or paint, or sew (I swear I’m not a grandma. I’m only 31!); all of which I did before I started writing. I never had a day where I HATED to knit.
So to be honest, on a day-to-day basis, I can’t really say I write because I enjoy the process of writing. I write to get my words out into the world. And honestly, that’s a pretty hard thing to do without the help of a publisher. So yes, I get down about it sometimes, and worry that I’m wasting my time, and that I’ll never get anywhere with it. But here’s a secret. I have a great idea. I’m going to take a few weeks off from writing, and then get started on it. In fact, it seems like after I finish a manuscript, there’s always another great idea waiting. And I say, okay one more time, I’ll go through this. But you know what? This will be my fifth manuscript. Sometimes, I say I’m thinking of quitting. Then, I look down and realize my fingers are still on the keyboard.