I’m generally a very upbeat, positive person. Most days, I love everything about the writing process. Most days. Most days aren’t today however. Today I’m feeling very discouraged.
Despite the fact that I’ve had quite a few encouraging comments from agents, and even editors, I have yet to have any of my work published. Most days, I don’t even think about it. I’m usually so focused on the characters and the stories, that it never even crosses my mind. But the last few days, it’s been a constant aching ball of self-doubt, sabotaging my writing efforts.
It’s actually a combination of several things that are making me feel this way: 1. The fact that I’m searching for a way to give my main character in my manuscript more depth, 2. the fact that I just finished another Sarah Dessen novel and feel like I’ll never be able to measure up to her wonderful writing, 3. the fact that I’ve been worrying whether my book is original or not, and 4.the fact that we’ve gotten 13 inches of snow in 2 days and the sun has been hidden behind a cloud for almost a week.
Sometimes, wanting to be a published author seems like the most insurmountable goal, ever. I’m working against such bad odds. Why do I even do it? What makes me think I can be a writer? Just because I love books and stories above anything else (except for my family of course!) doesn’t mean that I get to be a writer. But I don’t want to give up either, despite the odds, and the hard work, and the sting of rejection. So what is one to do? Do you have any ideas? How do you get through your discouraging days? Do you have any tips or tricks that might help? I’d love to hear what you have to say!
“There comes a time when the world gets quiet and the only thing left is your own heart. So you’d better learn the sound of it. Otherwise you’ll never understand what it’s saying.”
― Sarah Dessen, Just Listen